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.....i know none will read this stupid thing -.-
I just wanted...if anyone will read...to tell you how i fell like. Right now i fell sooo fed up and sad.
I have some reasons...-.-
It really pisses me off sometimes....you know when you play something new and shit...and you get an idea..
You emediatly scribble the idea down and have that happy felling about yourself for drawing that. Well im kinda fed up with holding this in me.
No im serius.
Anyway...i was playing this game [ i will not name anything for saftey ] and i got this awsome idea fro a character in the game. So i doddled it down and then i did a few more lists of detailed drawings how it would look. I fellt really happy how everything came out...really.
But then...
You know when you go check out fanart of that game....and you find out someone has allready done almost the same thing as you?.
Well...that felling...the felling you get when you get youre heart broken when you see that...the felling you know " if i post this....people will think i copyed it from him/her ".
I felt horrible....really...almost depressed...
When i saw that..i imediatly grabed the paper sheets i did...and tore them to shreads throwing them into the fire. I can still remember waching the most proud drawings i did burn to ashes....i still didnt recover from it.
And it was all here....in my heart......
I just wanted to share something i really had on my heart.
And i really felt depressed.....its just....u cant explain to much...its just...yeah....
Anyways...i dont find point in drawing anyway...so im planning to shut this thing down..( with the rest of my bulshit along ).
Why do i need this...anyway.
Ever sice that incident......i really fell down on my knees...
I just wanted...if anyone will read...to tell you how i fell like. Right now i fell sooo fed up and sad.
I have some reasons...-.-
It really pisses me off sometimes....you know when you play something new and shit...and you get an idea..
You emediatly scribble the idea down and have that happy felling about yourself for drawing that. Well im kinda fed up with holding this in me.
No im serius.
Anyway...i was playing this game [ i will not name anything for saftey ] and i got this awsome idea fro a character in the game. So i doddled it down and then i did a few more lists of detailed drawings how it would look. I fellt really happy how everything came out...really.
But then...
You know when you go check out fanart of that game....and you find out someone has allready done almost the same thing as you?.
Well...that felling...the felling you get when you get youre heart broken when you see that...the felling you know " if i post this....people will think i copyed it from him/her ".
I felt horrible....really...almost depressed...
When i saw that..i imediatly grabed the paper sheets i did...and tore them to shreads throwing them into the fire. I can still remember waching the most proud drawings i did burn to ashes....i still didnt recover from it.
And it was all here....in my heart......
I just wanted to share something i really had on my heart.
And i really felt depressed.....its just....u cant explain to much...its just...yeah....
Anyways...i dont find point in drawing anyway...so im planning to shut this thing down..( with the rest of my bulshit along ).
Why do i need this...anyway.
Ever sice that incident......i really fell down on my knees...
Long time no talk
hey, lately i have been scroling thru a lot of DA and my attention was given off more on my own personal account.
And as i am typing this i looked thru my gallery and saw all the art i posted and did on this account really makes me smile, the comments i red thru all of those, the memories. Kinda lit up my world right now.
I don't know why but lately i have been scroling thru youtube and have seen a lot of these youtube channels who rant about a lot of artists on DA. I mean DA is kinda full of trolls and fetishes, hence why im not so active here anymore tbh. But a lot of ppl tend to shit off on base user. Okay i get that they abuse bases and
Coment and ill...
Somone......!TheAngelStar (https://www.deviantart.com/theangelstar)
Since.......yeahhhh ill be doing this now? XDD
Comment and I will...
1. Tell you why I befriended you.
2. Associate you with something- random, a song, a color, a photo, etc.
3. Tell you my favorite thing about you.
4. Tell you a memory of you that I try to remember.
5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you my fave oc of yours
7. Tell you what I'd do if we were in the same room right now.
8. If you and I are handcuffed together in a cop car. Using only 3 words ,what I would say to you.
9. In return, you must post this in your journal.
Alive
Yes I am werry well alive as you can see ^^.
I can't belive it's gonna be school again in like....15 or less or more days...
I haven't done one of these jurnals in a long time haven't I? XDD
I'm really busy this summer ( laying around and being with friends xDDD )
Anyway i have a lot of requests to do ^^
And i will do them
REQUESTS:
~LovelyUsagiCake (https://www.deviantart.com/lovelyusagicake): Her OC and her sister's OC.
The one wanting this request told me to keep him/her anonymous: A mermaid.:iconangelnon:An art trade ( she did her part now its my turn ).
I think that's all from my requests ^^.
And yes i still do them
REQUEST OPEN I DO:
TRADITIONAL:Lineart, tribal, Bla
Changes
Guz I'm laning to move my acconut. ( to move )
Cause i dont like this one nomore ://
Anywhay.
I'we been failing school TAT.
(stupid math )
Anyway everything is awassome.
Did i tell u Me and my friend Ana :iconTheDeppLover4e: are planing to perfom Repo!The genetic opera.
And I'm shilo.
Thats all xD
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Did you really love the drawings you did?
if yes then what does it really matter if somebody thinks you copied?
you KNOW you never........that is what matters
if yes then what does it really matter if somebody thinks you copied?
you KNOW you never........that is what matters